Dood.

I logged into Twitter today and saw some updates from Michelle Phan.
She was feeling really down from commenters so I decided to look at some of the comments on her latest video, ‘Winter Wonderland’.

Honestly, some of these people are so rude and insensitive.
She’s not fake, nor is she trying to look white.
Is there something wrong with dying your hair?
Is there something wrong with wearing coloured contacts?
And that’s hardly a tan, but she had a blow dryer in her face to create the fake winds.

I dyed my hair brown, blonde and pink, and I’m a proud Asian.
I wear coloured contacts, and I’m a proud Asian.

Then there are the people who are just plain bashing her makeup look.
There’s a difference between constructive criticism and put downs.
I’m sure Michelle knows the difference, being an artist.
Some people will say, “I’m not sure that colour looks that great on you”, “____ was done sloppy”, “It seemed a bit too much when you added ___”, and then there are those that say, “Ewww this was your worst look”, “That looked so ugly.”
And people are complaining about her choice of PRODUCTS?!
For real?
She has the money now to afford the higher end brands, I’m sure if you had the money, you would too.
Obviously brands like YSL are amazing quality, so why wouldn’t she use them?
Just because she uses them doesn’t mean you have to. You can recreate the same look using drugstore dupes and cheaper alternatives.
If you don’t like a colour, use another colour.
If you don’t like the snowflake, don’t do it.
Don’t like the snowflakes on the lashes? Don’t do it.

And then there’s the matter of OPINIONS.
I’ve grown to hate this word. It’s overused and it’s an excuse for every hater out there.
If you REALLY wanted your opinion to be taken seriously, you wouldn’t write it like ‘EWW THIS WAS YOUR WORST LOOK. YOU’RE LOSING YOUR TOUCH. YOU LOOK FAKE NOW”.
They always say something like, “It’s my opinion, I can say whatever I want”
You’re hating for the sake of hating, not for the purpose of voicing your opinion.

UGH.

HELL NO.

No way.

Yuuto (ba.) of SCREW is leaving SCREW DDDDDDD:
I WANT TO CRY ; – ;
After losing Jasmine You, I found another bassist whom I actually paid attention to.
You see, normally I never pay attention to bassists and their bass lines. The first I actually did pay attention to was Jasmine You.
After we lost him, I found Yuuto.

Yuuto is my second favourite in SCREW, and it’s a very close second.
Recently, I watched the second part of the making of X-RAYS.
I absolutely loved Yuuto, he was adorable doing those summersaults and pretending to smoke.
And then the day after, I find out that he will be leaving SCREW.
It totally broke my heart.

I was tearing and even cried a bit, obviously not as much as I did for Jasmine You. After all, a life was lost, this is a member leaving. I was depressed for the next couple days of school, and I’m still somewhat down.

2009 is a shitty year.
I thought it was bad enough in the Kpop scene, with Jaebeom leaving 2PM, DBSK and their lawsuit against SM, Kangin’s assault scandal, etc. But it’s horrible in the VKei scene as well. So many bands disbanding, so many members leaving, Jrockers dying, it’s a horrible year. And for us people too. The crappy economy is taking a hit on me too.

I’m really hoping 2010 will be a better year.

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R.I.P

I won’t be silly this time with the title.

Yesterday, I found out Jasmine You of Versailles died (Morning of August 9th, JST).

I was so terribly shocked. It was so sudden.

Earlier last week, it was reported that activities were postponed due to the poor physical condition of Jasmine You.
Then all of a sudden, he just died.

Versailles is one of my favourite bands, EVER.

I normally don’t like the over-the-top Jrockers that wear elaborate everything, but I liked Jasmine You. He always put a smile on my face whenever I watched their comments and other videos. Like during their New Years comment when he was basking in the corner. Or when he was with Yuki and they made gestures while Kamijo was talking.

His blogs were always cheerful, happy and pure. He also liked getting his nails done.
If I had the chance, I would go to a nail salon with him.

I’ve been reading a lot of fans’ responses, about all these freaky coincidences involving Versailles during the time of Jasmine You’s death. I think I’ve also had these coincidences.

Recently, I decided to try and draw realism again, and the first person I chose to draw was Hizaki from Versailles. And another thing I’ve done recently was watching part of their Chateau de Versailles concert on my iPod, the instrumental part without Kamijo. During that part, Jasmine You came up to the front twice and you could hear his bass clearly. Whenever I watch that part, I always give my 100% focus on him, because I loved his parts.

A part of me is still in denial about this. I keep thinking, maybe they misunderstood the doctor, or maybe the doctor made a mistake. It hasn’t sunk in yet. If his family allows permission to give out the details, maybe then I’ll be out of denial. After all, the details would mean a confirmation of his death. That day, is the day that everything will finally hit me.

Death is such a common thing, it happens every (four) second, yet so many people are affected by it. Death is something that we should never overlook or think little about. Death can happen at anytime, anywhere. Any day could be our last, even tomorrow. Jasmine You’s sudden death shows us that death can happen at anytime, that life should not be taken for granted. Life is short. We should make the best out of everyday. Even those miserable days, we should try to look on the bright side.

My friend once told me, don’t regret, because by the time you’re done regretting, your life will be over. It’s so true.

Although I’m still in denial,

Rest in peace, dear Jasmine You <3

You’ll be watching over Versailles and us fans right? I know you will.
You’re a wonderful person, who always put a smile on my face.
Please know that.
I’ll never forget you, and you’ll never be forgotten by any of your fans.
Sleep well dear Jasmine You.
At least you’re in God’s Kingdom now right?
You’re there along with others, such as hide, Kami, Elvis Presley, Michael Jackson, etc.
You probably can’t read this on earth, but you might be reading this from above as I’m typing right now.
Thank you so much Jasmine You, for being you.

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Hanazakari no Kimitachi e

HA!
Today, I googled the pronounciation of ‘yaoi’.
Why?
Because my friends and people at AN kept pronouncing it ‘yow-ee’.
When I first saw the word yaoi, I thought it was pronounced ‘yah-oy’.
So when I heard them say ‘yow-ee’, I’m like, ‘That’s sounds so wrongggg!’
And by wrong, I mean incorrect.
But they were all like “Noooo it’s pronounced ‘yow-ee’ like y-a-o, yow, and then the i, ee”
First of all, yow-ee sounds like Yahweh (God’s name) so I’m like ‘Nooooo’
And second, IT JUST DOESN’T SOUND RIGHT, or Japanese for that matter.

So I googled it and learned that the hiragana is written like so: やおい
Which means the syllables would be ‘yah-oh-ee’, the correct way of pronouncing yaoi.

Yah-oh-ee when said fast or slurred may sound like ‘yah-oy’ but Americans hear it as ‘yow-ee’

Which means, I WAS SO RIGHT 8D
Saying yow-ee always pissed me off anyways~ So much, it’s my pet peeve now.

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I’m hungry…

Okay, so my dad is coming to Canada at the end of July/beginning of August.
But he can’t stay long enough until my birthday (August 28) Q_Q
So I told him “You’re not staying for my birthday~”
He said, “I know, but I can buy you a present right? What do you want?”

And that’s when I couldn’t think of anything O_O
I’m amazed I couldn’t think of anything I wanted. Normally I’d have a list of things.
So now, I have put together a very, very short list.

Birthday Wishlist

• Sketchbook
• Copic markers
• Guitar
• Lolita outfit
• Tailoring my cosplay outfit from before

I don’t want to burden my dad with all this because of the crappy economy.
So I’m only choosing a couple, that won’t cost too much.

If I choose the Lolita outfit, I’d only choose that one (Because it’s so expensive). If I don’t get the Lolita outfit, I could always get a guitar, since I’ve been wanting to learn. Sketchbooks are pretty cheap compared to everything else so it’s definitely staying there. Copic markers expensive too…and so is tailoring. I thought of CDs, but I’m already getting DIM when it comes out.
Maybe the debut single of ViViD? They seem promising.

GAH. I can’t decide > <
HEROPPPPP  MEEEEE

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Blooper

Long time no write!

I hated storms.
Today there, we had those really intense storms that last for like, half an hour.
I live on the edge of my neighbourhood so there’s nothing in front of us to block the wind.
So there was rain and wind slapping on our windows.
The electricity went off for one second and then came back on.

Yes, I hated that.
But then the sun started coming out again, and I actually took time to LOOK outside.
It was beautiful * O *
The scenery was amazing. Lush green grass with droplets of water, bright sun (almost sunset).
It was so nice, I even went outside to take pictures > w < b
Now I like storms
Or at least the part after it.

phoebe ☆ ★ でした

Cubaaaaa

Today I received a text from some person.
Guess what it said?

THE DRAGON VAGINA IS ATTACKING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So my friend decided to call the person and I tried asking who it was, and said that I got a text that said “dragon vagina is attacking me” and they hung up. So we tried calling again, and this time  the girl picked up again, said something, and gave the phone to some guy. The guy was all “Do you think this is funny?” but when we heard laughter in the background, we started laughing too.

And the guy said “What are you laughing at?” My friend said, “A song!” And she makes them listen to part of Wrong Number – DBSK (get it? the callers have the wrong number ;D) and the guy says, “Okay, go find the nearest metal fork, or metal rod, or something like that, and shove it down your throat,”

What did my friends say?
Friend1: I can’t find one!
Friend2: I’m sorry, I can’t afford a metal rod, I have no allowance.

Which totally killed it xD

Yeah they hung up and called again, and the guy was like “Did you find a metal fork yet?”
They called one more time but we never answered =P

Yeuhhh.

phoebe deshita~

WTFMAN.

Haven’t posted in so long lol > w <

Anywaysssss. It’s SPRINGBREAK!
But it’s almost over p(;´皿｀)q
It’s already Thursday!

Well, what did I do?
I went over to people’s houses a lot it seems d(*￣∇￣)=====b

Yesterday, I watched Ghost Town at the home theatre room in my condo building.
It was kinda messed up but fun in the end.
My two friends (Let’s called them Usagi-chan and Pura-chan for now) and I planned the movie and then hot pot at icook buffet afterwards. We invited 2 other friends and planned on inviting another (But we couldn’t get to her in time) and so we booked a table for six at icook just in case. 
Afterwards, one of the two other friends coming (Let’s call her Nyan for now) said that she was broke, which totally blew my mind, because this girl has never, I repeat NEVER been broke before, and couldn’t come for hot pot, but could come for movies.
The other friend (Calling her Puka-chan) was broke as well.

So afterwards, they Nyan wanted to know if she could bring her friend along, and I said yes.
They said they were only coming for movies
Puka-chan decided to come for the movies as well, and not the hot pot, bringing her little sister along with her as well.

So on the day of the event, everyone got here.
After finishing the movie, me, Pura-chan, and Usagi-chan were wondering where to eat, since we booked the table for 6, but only us 3 were going.
For some reason, Puka-chan and Nyan said they were eating dinner with us (Along with Nyan’s friend and Puka-chan’s sister).
And I was thinking, “Wait, you guys said you were only coming for the movie. Since when were you guys eating with us? You said you were broke.”
So we cancelled the icook reservation and debated on the dinner place.
We had to consider location and price as well.

We wanted to go to sushi, but Nyan’s friend (She was the only White person there btw) didn’t like sushi, or noodles etc. (Basically the common Oriental stuff). So that was a no. Nyan and Puka-chan both wanted McDonalds.
Me, Usagi-chan, and Pura-chan were like WTF. McDonald’s for dinner?

Then we thought about Korean BBQ. I don’t know how that didn’t work. I think it was the price.
Then we thought about Richmond Court (Restaurant).
And we agreed on that.

Later on, we realized that Nyan’s friend wouldn’t really like it there because there’s not much variety and most of the stuff is noodles. 
So we went back to the Korean BBQ idea because Korean BBQ is all meat. 
But then Nyan tells us she only has $9 with her.

So I proposed that we split up. Nyan and Puka-chan’s group will go to McDonalds while me, Usagi-chan, and Pura-chan went to Korean BBQ.
After Nyan and Puka-chan’s group left, the rest of us decided, “Hey, why not go to icook now?”
So Pura-chan calls her mom to see if she could drive, but she was too far away.
Usagi-chan calls her mom, and her mom spazzes at her and says that she’s coming over to pick her up.

Then we decided it would just be me and Pura-chan going to Korean BBQ.
When Usagi’s mom got here, she says, “Oh if you guys are going somewhere to eat, I’ll drive you there,” which again, made me go WTF.
On the phone, she was spazzing at Usagi.
 
We reserved a table for 3 during the ride, and so we got to eat hot pot! ｂ（＠＾０＾＠）ｄ

Oh my goodness. I ate so much that night, I felt like I was going to explode >.>
The food was so GOOD.
Especially the UDON <3 Hot pot food only tastes good if you choose a good combination of condiments to eat it with.
And man did I SCREW up mine >.>
I put in too much spicy sauce and I had to remake mine twice.
I gave up afterwards and just used my friend’s mixture.

But it was so worth it.
Afterwards we walked around T&T Supermarket so get some exercise.
Me and Usagi-chan bought some gum (From Glico ) and I bought a RAMU BOTTLE drink > w <
RAMUNE IS LOVE （＊＾3＾●） ﾉ~~~ ♥

Oh and I finally changed my wallpaper ♥

RUKI IS LOVE <3 

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PWNAGE.

Ooooo long time no post ;D

Drew some drawings LULZ.

 

This is CHUKAPU.
The Psychosocial Cannibalistic Bear.
I had to tie him up D:

 

 

Speech bubble adventurez :3
So awesome right?
It’s a BE-AU-TI-FUL masterpiece 8D

 

Meet WTF MAN 8D

He is total PWNAGE.

WTF MAN > EYEBROW MAN.

HAHA ANNA.

HAHA.

 

K a real drawing:

 

KINGBOO!

And I have a canker sore on my tongue T^T
Like, it’s not a little white dot.
It’s the ENTIRE tip of my tongue Q A Q

phoebe ☆ ★ でした

melon anyone?

I dled a trial version of CS2 yesterday > w <
I ish happehhhhhh
I made a set last night :3

    
 

I knowww the colour and brightness and all that crap is different but MEH.

Ohhh and I got a haircut today
It’s even shorter than better :3
I post teh piccu letaaaaa~

I have to do my geo homework nao – 3 -

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